Dreams and fantasies

Assalamualaikum and hi inche blog

The post before this is going down memory lane but now, I want to talk about my dreams and fantasies..haha..i call all of this as dreams and fantasies because it was too good to be true. And It takes real destiny “takdir” for it to become true and reality.

My first dream…

I dream to meet an architect and fall in love and get married to him and have my dream house as a present. It would be very lovable for me. Having my own dream house built by someone so dearly to me. If I did become one of the health professional, I want to meet him as my client or patient. Someone that I care and treat to become better. I guess I had been watching too much korean drama, so I dreamt to meet my love like that. A drama meeting..hahhaa…so much fantasies..

In real life, for me, falling in love is very hard, I guess only “sibajubiru” is successful in entering my heart. So far, for now, I guess I can’t be a health professional yet, I had so mush to much to learn and too much that I need to remember…huuu..but I won’t give up. I did study 4 years in dietetics, so it is such a waste if I didn’t work in that field. So, if my dream comes true, I would be very happy.

In my imagination, an architect would be like matlutfi, kind, full of sense of humor, handsome and cute and also someone who is Islamic.

My second dream…

All my friend said that this is really a fantasies..hahah.. I dream to meet a korean idol, which is someone who can sings, dance and plays music instruments very well..and now I am a fan of BTS..BangtanSeonyungdan..haha,,this season and semester I am in love with their songs. They are so much younger than me in age. I like them, because they made their own music and songs and they tried so hard until their music is being recognized by the world. I am impressed with their hardwork. I want to work as hard as them to achieve my dreams. So one day, I want to go to their fan signing event and have a picture with them. My impossible dream is to become their noona and become their family and friends,

Sometimes, I do dream to have a husband like them, handsome and talented but if I have a husband like them, I would not live in peace because there would be too many fans in their I guess my dreams stops at being their friends.

But if I am able to meet them, maybe I would not become too impressed with their handsomeness. Some people said, the stars looks very beautiful because it is far away but if it is near us, maybe it would not very beautiful. But still if I had the chance to have someone like that as my husband, I would be very grateful. He can sings to me when I’m stressed, play music to me, sings my favourite songs..the only lacking which is the important one is  he is not Islamic. So, the dream is very impossible to become true so it become fantasies.

So, the dream can still be achieved if I want to meet them during fan signing. But, the effort must be large because to meet them is very hard, and until the time I can meet them, maybe at that time, they are not famous like I hope one day I can achieve that dream..

The end for my dream now..
Sometimes, people dream something that is impossible to achieve so that they have the courage and put more effort in achieving it. So the dream become possible to achieve..
I can dream having them in my life but as long as they are idol, I guess their life belong to the public.
Life is not fantasies, it is reality…
#dreams #BTS #midsembreak
November 7, 2015


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A Week At My Umah Sewa..


Ok, this time, I will wrote in malay plus english.. sy dah lama giler tak menulis di blog ni..nak kata busy sgt, busy sgt2 sebab dah tahun akhir, tapi if the passion to write tuh tak ada still xleh nak write jugak.

Seminggu cuti semester ni, I have decided that I won’t go home to my hometown. I stay with one of my housemate. If all of them going home, I guess I will go home too because I am a bit scared to stay alone in my rent house. I do miss my hometown because it has been a long time but thinking all of the tutorial, assignments and all of the papers that I need to finished and submit, so I’ve decided to stay in palam finishing all of it. Once I go home, I won’t be able to do all of that because being home, meaning free of all assignment…haha..that kind of feeling of holiday, not doing anything, just rest and lazy around..

First day

Jadi, cuti hari pertama sy di rumah sewa, sy telah menonton drama melayu tajuk “aku bukan buaya”.  Citer ni agak jiwang, so banyak lagu-lagu melayu yang agak jiwang contohnya lagu hafiz, tapi sy tak ingt pulak tajuk..haha…ingt suara hafiz je..dan sy sendiri tak percaya sy boleh stay tgok cter bertahan sebab citer ni byk sgt lagu-lagu yang sy suka..hehe..lagu afghan..tetiba sy nak tgok pulak cter ni..lagu jodoh pasti bertemu. Dan sy berjaya habiskan tgok drama ni sampai habis. As always, the drama have happy ending. Ok la drama ni bg sy..takla best sgt sbb typical malay drama. In real life, rasanya tak mungkin terjadi kot..haha..i don’t believe in drama and fantasies.hehe

The thing about myself, bila sy dengar lagu jiwang ni, sy akan teringat kisah-kisah zaman dahulu kala tak banyak pengalaman jatuh cinta sbb saya sendiri pon tak tahu cinta tuh macam mana..tapi dalam hidup sy, jatuh cinta tuh pernah sy rasa sbb bagi sy cinta tuh bila sy inginkan yang terbaik untuk org jatuh cinta dgn org yang sy tak pernah mungkin sukakan dia, sayangkan dia, cintakan dia..semuanya mungkin..hahaha

Semasa sy dalam proses sukakan ‘dia’ tuh, nama dia selalu ada dalam doa sy..kadang-kadang bila sy sedih, atau stress, dia akn muncul dalam mimpi sy, buatkan sy mampu tersenyum dalam keadaan yg stress.. sy tak tahu knp sy sgt suka doakan dia, Allah swt kata, jika kita sukakan seseorang, kita doakan yg terbaik untuk dia. Sepanjang dia di sana, sy selalu doakan dia. Hoping the best for him and let him always in the right path. Sy panggil dia “sibajubiru” sbb one of my friend called him that..haha..Actually, he looks very nice wearing blue colour of baju melayu. That is why he is named as “sibajubiru”.

Lama-kelamaan, hati sy makin sembuh, nama ‘dia’ tak lagi berada dalam doa sy. Kita tak boleh sukakan manusia lebih daripada kita sukakan ALLAH SWT. Mungkin hati sy dah sembuh, sy tak lagi sukakan dia..bila sy dengar he is good now. I guess I stop liking and just wishing all the best for him. Sy gembira kenali dia sbb sy belajar, erti rindu, erti sayang, erti inginkan yang terbaik untuk dia, erti tak kisah bila dia tak pernah sukakan sy. Dulu mungkin sy sedih dan kisah, tapi sekarang itu semua dah tak penting. Zaman cintan-cintun ni dah berlalu dalam hidup sy. The phase is gone already..

Sekarang focus sy hanyalah untuk habiskan belajar and contribute something to the community especially to my family and loved ones.
#sibajubiru #midsembreak
November 7, 2015

~first day mid sem break

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