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Dreams and fantasies

Assalamualaikum and hi inche blog
The post before this is going down memory lane but now, I want to talk about my dreams and fantasies..haha..i call all of this as dreams and fantasies because it was too good to be true. And It takes real destiny “takdir” for it to become true and reality.
My first dream…
I dream to meet an architect and fall in love and get married to him and have my dream house as a present. It would be very lovable for me. Having my own dream house built by someone so dearly to me. If I did become one of the health professional, I want to meet him as my client or patient. Someone that I care and treat to become better. I guess I had been watching too much korean drama, so I dreamt to meet my love like that. A drama meeting..hahhaa…so much fantasies..
In real life, for me, falling in love is very hard, I guess only “sibajubiru” is successful in entering my heart. So far, for now, I guess I can’t be a health professional yet, I had so mush to much to learn and too much t…

A Week At My Umah Sewa..

Assalamualaikum…
Ok, this time, I will wrote in malay plus english.. sy dah lama giler tak menulis di blog ni..nak kata busy sgt, busy sgt2 sebab dah tahun akhir, tapi if the passion to write tuh tak ada still xleh nak write jugak.
Seminggu cuti semester ni, I have decided that I won’t go home to my hometown. I stay with one of my housemate. If all of them going home, I guess I will go home too because I am a bit scared to stay alone in my rent house. I do miss my hometown because it has been a long time but thinking all of the tutorial, assignments and all of the papers that I need to finished and submit, so I’ve decided to stay in palam finishing all of it. Once I go home, I won’t be able to do all of that because being home, meaning free of all assignment…haha..that kind of feeling of holiday, not doing anything, just rest and lazy around..
First day
Jadi, cuti hari pertama sy di rumah sewa, sy telah menonton drama melayu tajuk “aku bukan buaya”.  Citer ni agak jiwang, so banyak lagu-l…

Kill me, heal me

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Assalamualaikum and hi inche blog..it has been a while since the last post. Lately I am under extreme discomfort and stress. I have been thinking too much and too hard. I guess I think 200 miles ahead what happened now. I thought about all the consequences and everything.


So, to overcome and actually run from all the stress, for this weekend, I’ve been watching Korean drama entitled kill me heal me. It is a story about a man with dissociative personality disorder also known as multiple personality disorder. As I already know the plot, I was hoping the story to move faster but actually for me, each episodes have their own strong part. I loved every episode starting from episode one. And also for every episode, there is sadness. Sometimes it overwhelmed me and I cry. This drama helps me tears down and release all the unnecessary feeling I am having. The hero is ji sung and the heroin is hwang jun eun if I didn’t misspelled their name. their chemistry is very good and I liked it so much.
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Thoughts In Life

"some people learn from mistakes, but some aren't" "sometimes when you think you know that person, you're wrong because people change through time" "if you can have negative thoughts about me, why can't I, it is a decision" "why you want to know how I feel, when you never tell me yours" "why you questioning my act , when I never questioning yours" "how long can you keep it until you lose it while your heart no longer in it" "why questioning the change of heart when you can't never control it" "why questioning the past when you can't never change it" "why gave forgiveness, when your heart can't truly accept the fact" "why seek forgiveness, when you don't truly feel the guilty of what you did" "why need a reason, when you can't see and accept it, it'll become an excuse" "when you think negative all the time, all you see is black even tho…

Throughout the life

Assalamualaikum ince blog.. Too much things happen but today i want to tell you how i have been thinking..
Bila waktu susah sesorang itu tidak bersama kita, adakah wajar untuk kita bergantung harap padanya lagi bila kita susah, bila kita perlukan teman untuk berbicara. Maka, bila itu terjadi, saya tidak lagi mengharap dia berkata, "awak ok ke?nak saya tolong tak?". Dengan sendirinya saya faham, saya tak bole berkongsi rasa dan berharap dia akan cuba memahami saya. Saya tak perlu lagi berharap pada satu pengharapan palsu. Saya penat, maka saya cari seseorang yang bole membantu saya tak kira masa bila saya perlukan pertolongan. Hanya dia yang bertanya,"awk ok ker? Sy bole tolong awak kalau awk nak". Maka, bila saya rasa amat dan perlukan pertolongan dari seorang insan, saya akan minta pertolongan dari dia.
Sepanjang saya di palam, bagi saya ini adalah masalah yang sy perlu berkongsi walaupun pada luaran, saya nampak ok.
Pertama, waktu laptop sy rosak, saya sedih san…

The Dream Journey

Assalamualaikum inche blog..
I'm back in palam pursuing the dream..and when i took a bus coming here..i still feel a bit scared due to the accident thatvhad occured to me before..trauma i think.. I thought about lots of things and finally i managef to sleep..even when i travelled with my friend beside me, i still feel unsecure and uncomfortable thinking about sort of things that could ever happen..thankfully i am safely arrived here..pursuing and finishing what i have started.. Things will get better..i will get over this.. Thanks My Creator for always be with me..
#themeaningofalwaystogether #AllahSWT #trauma


I Learn...

I learn that people don't like it when you talk too much, so i learnt to be quiet...
I learn that you can't expect others to understand you, so i learnt to understand myself...
I learn that people don't always care about your feelings, so i learnt to put myself first and don't care about others feelings...
I learn that people don't like critics about their favourite stuff or things, so i learnt to be quiet...
I learn that you can't always depend on others, so i learnt to keep my problems only to my self...
I learn that you can't also depend on your friends, so i learnt to stand on my own two feet...
I learn that you can't always depend on your family, so i learnt not to share my problem with them and stand alone...
I learn that your life and my life is different, so learnt to be open minded and not prejudice...
I learn that things happen for a reason, so i learnt to be positive and patience..
I learn that people always have their own reason for what the…