Sesuatu Rasa


Hatiku dipagut rasa sedih bila terkenangkanya...adakah dia tahu apa yg ak rase...tidak..dia tak harus tahu apa-apa...rasa ini pasti akan pergi jua bila tiba saatnya nanti..ak yakin itu..mungkin Allah SWT ingin mngajarku apa itu rasa rindu pada seseorang yg x pasti..ak yakin semua ini ada hikmahya untuk ak meskipun ak akn terluka jua nanti...ak x kisah terluka andai semua rasa ini hilang tanpa bekas yg akn buat ak terkenangkannya bila ak sendirian...air mataku menitis tiap kali ak teringat padanya kerana ak rasa diri ini berdosa kerana mengingati seseorang yg tidak halal bagiku padahal ak seharusnya banyak mengingati ALLAH SWT dan banyak beristigfar untuk memohon keampunan dari ALLAH SWT..doaku agar dia tidak merasai apa yang ak rasa dan semoga dia bahagia dalam hidupnya...pintaku agar semua ini berakhir...air mata tidak akn menitis lagi walaupun sakit.. hanya padamu dapat ak pinta ini semua Ya ALLAH...Kau hadirkan rasa ini dan Kau jualah yang berhak mengambilnya kembali..ak harap semua kan kembali seperti biasa bila ak membuka lembaran baru apabila Muharram tiba nanti..mohon doaku dikabulkan..ak juga kan bermuhajadah supaya hatiku tetap dan melupakannya meskipun ku rasa amat payah kerana kenangan yg amat sukar tuk ak lupakan..duhai hati..sembuhlah dan kembalilah seperti biasa..ak tidak mahu merindui seseorang yg x pasti..
                 
                  Andai saja ada Harry Potter mnjadi sahabatku...ak kan pinta padanya supaya dibuatkan posyen lupa ingatan...ak juga mahu posyen hilang kesedihan supaya ak tidak sedih lagi...banyak pula yg ak inginkan...hmm...tapi semua itu x mungkin kan?? ak tidak mahu semua ingatanku hilang tapi ak cuma mahu kenangan dgnnya pergi jauh dariku..ak tidak perlukannya andai kenangan itu membuat hatiku sedih.. andai saja posyen itu wujud..ak mahu minumnya supaya semua ini hilang...andai saja kan semua ini realiti dan bukan fantasi pasti hidupku kan bertambah tenang dan mudah....andai saja...........

                Tapi ak tahu semua itu tidak terjadi di dunia nyata dan ak harus berpijak di bumi yang nyata... ak tahu ALLAH SWT pasti tidak kan mnguji hambanya tanpa sebab yg kukuh...ak yakin itu...hanya ALLAH SWT yg bisa membuatku tenang..ak yakin semua dariNya adalah untuk kebaikan diriku juga akhirnya...ak pasti dgn itu dan ak berharap ak kan menjadi seorang muslimah yg baik..ameen...ak yakin hatiku bisa sembuh..ak yakin kok dgn kebolehan hatiku karna hatiku kuat...semoga diberkati dan diredhai ALLAH SWT apa yg ak rasai dan semoga ianya akan berakhir dengan cepat...hanya itu pintaku...kabulkanlah....ameen....

Suara hati
November 24, 2010
17 Zulhijjah 1431

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  1. UnknownNovember 27, 2010 at 10:22 AM

    assalamualaikum sahabatku anti AIN..
    la tahzan.. kenapa perlu berduka? sedangkan setiap ujian yang allah berikan pada kita itu adalah anugerah allah.. alhamdulillah, DIA telah memilih kamu untuk diuji kerana DIA sangat menyayangi kamu.. jadi bersyukurlah.. insyaallah, dia menguji kerana bersebab.. bersabarlah.. ingat? senjata mukmin adalah USAHA DOA TAWAKKAL.. insyaallah... ana yakin ada sesuatu yang berharga yang DIA nak berikan pada kamu... amin... semoga Allah permudahkan hidup kamu...

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  2. lifeasnfa.blogspot.comDecember 4, 2010 at 10:07 AM

    jazakillah ya ukti....sayang syra...skrg hati ain da sembuh...i've got myself back!!!!!hepy sgt...hati ain skrg hanya tuk ALLAH SWT,Rasulullah saw and HARRY...heh

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