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Assalamualaikum....
Lately ni,sy rasa hati sy sakit sgt2...dan lepas tuh rasa sedih sgt2..mgkin jgk sbb perubahan hormon..n mgkin jgak sbb My Creator nk sy sdar dr kebodohan n kealpaan sy, maka Dia uji sy..

Kerap kali sy diuji dgn persahabatan...org selalu berkata, sorg pergi, akn dtg pengganti yg bru yg lebih baik...sy akui yg itu...

Mgkin sy cuma tidak bernasib baik dgn kwn lelaki..stakat nie, kwn2 lelaki sy sma baik2 belaka, cuma ego dorg sgt tggi..sy terpaksa akui yg itu myebabkan sy tkut untuk berkwn rpt dgn mane2 lelaki, krna bg sy dorg sma sme...pd asalnye kate tak same, tpi bla knal lme2, mang dorg sme...

Sy fham, semua org ade ego masing2 tpi ego atau persahabatan yg lebih pntg..sebelum nie nme sy kotor disebabkn kwn perempuan, skrg kwn lelaki pulak...agaknye sma sme je kan...

Sy bg peluang kedua, tpi berbaloi k??sy nie terlampau baik ker sy terlampau jhat..selalunyer sy mudah stress angkara yg nmenyer ‘persahabatan’..itu mgkin kelemahan hati sy yg pling lemah kowt..

Klu pasal dye, hati sy xlah lemah sgt, sy xlah stress sgt..ntahla..sy rasa dye pon sme jgak kn perangai, dye kan lelaki jgak..adakah jodoh sy nanti pon mcm tuh...?

Sy jdik tkut bla fikir smua kemungkinan tuh...apepon dugaan yg dtg, sy kena kuat, dalaman dan luaran..sy tak boleh lemah dan tak dibenarkan sama sekali untuk menyerah kalah ape lg berputus as...!

SAYA HARUS N WAJIB MENJADI KUAT DALAMAN DAN LUARAN...

22:39
May 4, 2013
~sabarlah hati....ALLAH SWT bersamamu..

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