Kehidupan Seorang Hawa

Assalamualaikum Kadang-kadang hati terasa atau sakit... Kadang-kadang air mata ini mengalir... Kadang-kadang senyuman ini palsu... Kadang-kadang kaki ini penat melangkah... Terlalu banyak ‘kadang-kadang’ yg terjadi sehingga ‘kadang-kadang’ menjadi kebiasaanya.. Kebiasaannya hati ini terguris... Kebiasaannya air mata ini terjatuh... Kebiasaannya senyuman ini dibuat-buat... Selalunya kaki akan berhenti seketika... Namun perjalanan tetap diteruskan.. Kerana Dia meletakkan saya disini.. Kerana Dia percaya saya boleh berjaya sampai ke penghujungnya... Kerana Dia tahu apa yang terbaik untuk saya... Dan kerana Dia lah saya masih lagi mampu bertahan di sini... Hati yang terguris.. Air mata yang jatuh.. Senyuman yang palsu.. Semuanya di simpan jauh di dalam... HATI INI... Percaya hanya pada Dia.. Percaya pada ciptaanNya nanti akan kecewa.. Berharap hanya pada Dia.. Berharap pada ciptaanNya juga akan kecewa.. Hati ini dan kadang-kada...

same things happen twice.. guess what, this time its quicker.. maybe this time also.. i'm not lucky choosing a 'ship' but boarding it..its not returning back.. ride until the end.. removing attachment.. don't put your trust on the air.. catch it and keep it tight.. hating myself...i should.. for not being able to speak up.. but My Creator always gave me.. strength and love I need.. so..don't hate myself.. so much things to say but no words can describe it.. how's life now.. only My Creator and me know.. 23:27 November 27, 2013 ~i want to love pathology...

Assalamualaikum... senyum..kenapa kita senyumm..sebab ade sesuatu yg bwat hati kita rasa bahagia dan kita pon akan tersenyum.. sy suke dengan keadaan sekarang..sy tak terikat..hati sy dah suci balik..cuma bese la kan, kdg2 teringat jugakk... tpi ade sorg nie yg akn buat sy senyum..hehe..xthu la senyum sbb bahagia or rasa best..haha..ntahlah cuma rasa nak senyum..hehe..macam senyum malu.. sy tak mengharap apa2, impikan jadik kenyataan jauh sekali..cuma sy suke dgn perasaan ini..selagi bole rasa camnie, sy akan rasainya...mungkin nanti da x bole rasa camnie.. skrg musim org kwen..rmai kawan2 sy yg dah melangkah ke era yg baru lam kehidupan..semua nampak bahagia sekali..sy ntah bila, tpi sy xla menantikan nya..sy cuma berharap langkah sy ke arah itu akan diberkati nanti..akan membawa sesuatu yg baru pada sy, keluarga sy..mngubah semuanya.. dan sebelum masa itu sampai, sy ingin berjaya menjadi seorang yg sy impikan..seorang yg bole mngubah insan lain melalui pemaka...

Assalamualaikum inche blog..sudah lama kita tak bersua muka.. Coretan kali ini cuma sekadar apa yg sy lalui setakat nie pada semester baru ni..terlalu banyak perkara yg berlaku..ada baik, ada gembira bahagia, ada juga melukakan dan menyakitkan hati..kadang2 sy rasa terlalu banyak emosi yg sy rasai hingga rasa nak jadik heartless untuk semingguuuu...huuu.. Fitrah seorang manusia itu mang penuh dengan perasaan..terlalu banyak kenangan..ada baik dan ada buruk..ada menyenangkan ada menyakitkan..kdg2 sy tkut tkut dgn kenangan..tkut untuk membuat kenangan yg bru..tkut untuk memulakan ikatan yg baru..mungkin sy paranoid atau sy mang paranoid untuk rasa apa yg sy pernah rasa dulu..tpi kadang2, disebabkan apa yg sy dah rasa dulu, membuat sy lebih bersedia dengan segala kemungkinan..membuat sy rasa lebih kuat dan tabah.. Apakah maksud disebalik pertemuan demi pertemuan..takdir kah? jodoh kah? satu peringatan kah? Adakah Maha Pencipta ingin menguji sy lg dengan ikatan ini..sy ing...

  Assalamualaikum..hehe..makan2 di Korea?..hehe..Di mana? Di Seoul Garden..SCM Ari nie ktorg celebrate hasil kerja keras memerah keringat, membanting tulang mencari rezeki..hehe..sehari je enjoy dan lepas tuh abis..haha..terlalu banyak perkara yang telah berlaku 3 minggu pertama di palam which i don’t know how to put all of it into words..into simple words..but i guess the word ‘money’ can explain it all..hmm Kenapa money? Sebab semuanya berkait dgn duit..3 minggu di palam, duit keluar mngalir macam air..keluar duit dri bank terus abis..mostly sem nie duk beli buku je manjang..sy mohon dan harap sangat2 sem nie akan lebih baik dari sem lepas..ok, kita masuk balik topik seoul gardenn..hehe Sebenarnya hasrat di hati nk g korea tapi tak berpeluang, so dapat pegi seoul garden pon jadilah..dah lama sangat nk pegi..selama nie lalu je depan kedai tuh, tak berani nak masuk, dan akhirnya malam nie masuk..haha..semuanya tanpa dirancang..hehe..nak kata dirancang pon bole jugak....

Dia hanya dia di duniaku Dia hanya dia di mataku Dunia terasa telah menghilang Tanpa ada dia di hidupku Dunia terasa telah menghilang Tanpa ada dia di hidupku Sungguh sebuah tanya yang terindah Bagaimana dia merengkuh sadarku Tak perlu ku bermimpi yang indah Kerna ada dia dihidupku Ku ingin dia yang sempurna Untuk diriku yang biasa Ku ingin hatinya Ku ingin cintanya Ku ingin semua yang ada pada dirinya Ku hanya manusia biasa Tuhan, bantuku tuk berubah Tuk miliki dia..tuk bahagiakanya Tuk menjadi seorang yang sempurna Untuk dia.. Sy akan dedikasikan lagu nie pada jodoh sy..hehe..inche jodoh, semoga bla kita bertemu..sy akan dapat nyanyikan lgu nie untuk awak..kerana ia amat sesuai..kerana sy memang hanya insan biasa.. Lgu nie lgu OST Love in Paris kat TV3..cter feveret mak sy..hehe.. Sy suka lgu nie sbb liriknya..sesuai untuk sy yg masih blom jumpe inche jodoh..ntah wujud ntah tak..hahaha... ~TQ tuk My Creator untuk setiap pertemuan ...

Assalamualaikum....inche blog... Raya thun nie taklah meriah sgt tpi raya tetap raya kan..setiap kali raya akan tercipta memori raya yang baru yang membezakan dengan raya sebelum nie..kalau diingat balik, raya tahun nie saya tak balik kg mak saya, dan saya tak jumpa nenek saya pada pagi raya tapi saya jumpa nenek saya sebelum hari raya..pada hari terakhir bulan puasa..bila atok da tak ada, memang rasa lain, lagipun skrg saya dah besar, rasa excited raya tuh macam dah kurang, entahla mungkin banyak sebab-sebab lain jugak.. So, buat ape nak citer bende2 tak best kan, jom dengar citer yang indah2 je..hehe.. raya tahun nie sy dapat jumpa seorang kwn skolah sy dah lama tak jumpa..Azah Fatihah..hehe...dye masih mcm dulu cuma dah makin matang..besela kan..everyone grows up and become matured..disebabkan dye, sy dapat jumpa cg sekolah sy dulu, cg homeroom sy yg sgt baik n best..Cg Patli n Cg Zainab..Cg Patli masih mcm dulu, malah makin handsome..hehe..Cg Zainab masih baik n sporting...

Assalamualaikum inche blog 2-3 hari nie sy rasa happy sbb byk perkara yg menunjukkan sy dah buat satu keputusan yg baik dalam menentukan kesihatan hati sy..hehe.. Baru-baru nie befday my BFF, BFF sejak skolah lagi..i miss her a lot..talking through the phone really make me miss all our good time at school..she got free call and had called me, we talked about all sort of things that happen to us recently and also try to sort out all the memories when we at school..its kinda reminds me of my former school.. Ok, sekarang nak citer pasal my BFF..she is very2 kind and a very2 understanding person. Each time, i had problem i would tell her about it and she will always help me to be patient, sort thing out for me and help me to accept thing the way they are. I am very grateful that she is my friend and i hope and wish she will always be my friend.. I am very happy and grateful that you are my friend SITI RAFIQAH ADNIN BINTI MOHD ROSDAN ....nomu2 kamsahamida..semoga ukhuwah...

Assalamualaikum sma...so, skrg nk cter pasal novel yg bru je abis bce..heeh.. Da sap upload gmbr, then now, story time..n the novel chosen is by Hlovate...ANTHEM.. Sebenarnye novel ni dah lme beli..adik yg tolong belikan mase first2 novel ni kua dulu,,tpi xley nk bace lg sbb tgh bz n nak final da time tuh,...n reason yg terbesar adalah sbb novel nie kat umah..sy kat palam..heeh Ok, pasal novel ni...its an islamic novel which are not too islamic..novel nie mcm contengan jalanan tpi versi perempuan..yg sgt2 best..the main input yg sy dapat dr novel nie adalah: -           Don’t jugde a book by its cover(common kan tpi len taw lam novel nie...point of view yg berbeza) -           Kebaikan mang ada lam setiap insan, n setiap org akan tertarik dgn kebaikan...dan jugak..hidayah tuh kita kna carik, bla Tuhan da bg hint sket2, kita kna carik Hidayah tuh dan cuba terima with open heart.. ...

Assalamualaikum.... ari nie nk cter pasal sem 2 as Nutrition And Dietetics students.. sem nie mang pnat an hopefully result sem nie sma ok.. gmbr nie sma random je.. all these are my friends 23:36 July 10, 2013 ~Ramadhan....Home..

Assalamualaikum... "Dreams, that's where I have to go To see your beautiful face anymore" iye..sy mimpi dye lg..bosan kan inche blog.. time stress pon dye bole muncul lam mimpi..haha xthu la knp dye muncul tapi mimpi yg nie mang xley pkai la...sbb mang xmungkin kowt terjadi..haha dye x mungkin akn dtg n begged me not to forget him and ask me to be his girl..haha skrg hati sy dh x rase pape sgt..dah sembuh dgn jayanya..haha.. tpi lam mimpi tuh cam sweet lak bila pk2 balik.. dye dtg n said ape tah..dah lupe...hahah..tpi sweet la.. dh la mimpi mse mimpi pas subuh..tertido sambil bce note nutrition lifespan... skrg bla mimpi dye xla rase mcm moved gler2 cuma still jgak akn pk pasal mimpi nie sampai esok..lalala~~ agaknye hati nie ske lg pk sal dye...hehe... dreams is something that goes nowhere because it was never true..huu nie bukti sy dah sembuh..hehe happy je kan...hehe.. harap2 ape yg hati sy rasa kekal berpanjangan...

Assalamualaikum… Someone did persuade me through songs a while ago, but he failed… Currently i'm listening to shadows by sam tsui~~ He fails to persuade me and opened my heart to ‘love’ by human.. But now, I guess I want to close it really tight.. But, every time I heard ‘Babak Cinta by Aidil, I’ll remember him.. At first I don’t even realize that, he was using that songs to say sorry to me.. I’m a bit slow when it comes to malay songs..but still a malay songs that can really moved my heart..it is just, songs can’t persuade me.. There’s some things and events in our life that sometimes we remember but it doesn’t meant that we regret things in past. Sometimes no matter how many times we tries to forget but eventually it will pop out and we will remember every details of that event. For example, like I’m remembering these tiny little event each time I listen to the songs..eventhough now I’m in the middle of finishing my Anatomy assignment..hehe I guess I w...

Assalamualaikum inche blog... i'm healing this time and it is going smoothly..hehe.. i'm happy that finally i get to forget him fully... thank to all the xtvt that had been organised and all the assignment..huhu.. i'm happy... now, i can free to read all his status and anything about him.. no more heart feeling.. maybe i'm matured enough now.. i'm just going to focus on my dream.. hehe..till now.. Thank You a lot to My Creator that helps me.. overcome my feeling.. healing all the wounds.. be me once again.. being the old NFA.. kamsahamida...:) 00:58 June 6, 2013 ~i will forget him..this time for sure..:D

Assalamualaikum inche blog.. I’m at puncak alam now..my holidays have ended and here i am once again..finishing my second sem as nutrition and dietetics student..huhu.. Being in the second sem, makes me think a lot and reflect on what i did in sem 1..i want to get excellent result for this sem as my first sem..i didn’t get much.. As i am ready to remove the biggest attchment in my heart, which is sibajubiru..i’ve always would dream of him..this time..i’m dreaming of him while on my journey back to palam in the bus i’m taking..i dream of him twice i think.. As usual, while we on a journey to some place with a bus, we will often awake and then sleep again after awake..after all, my journey is at night, so for sure, I’ll sleep while in the bus..but still, I am dreaming of sibajubiru.. This time, I am very2 sure I can handle and teach my own heart to address him as a friend and slowly forgetting that I was once fall for him..even though there’s no memories between us..hmm.. ...

my eyes leaking...as i watch scent of woman.. as it leaks out, my mind keep thinking...bout... evrytime i feel sad inside..i was always thinking bout... can't help it... i'm trying hard to be better and good person... to myself.. to my family... to all my loved ones... to My Creator... i guess my eyes always leaking when i watch any korean drama... which potraying sad...sad drama..sad story...sad love story... right now, i'm healing... no longer sad because of him.. it just when i sad, or feeling depressed..he's always the one in my mind... i have to be strong... i have to move on.. i will! 0:33 May 28, 2013 ~hawai 5 - 0 S3

Assalamualaikum.... The story continues..finally i get to settle that thing for my lil sis after waiting for 2 hours..i guess i am very very very VERY BORED times 1000..hahah...n then after settle, i am very very VERY relieved..i guess today i’ve train my patience level again..everytime i go home and help my lil sis with this thing..i’d always train for my patience level..hahah Btw, my day helping my sis end when we got the money..haha..the kind of thing that i help my lil sis is these.. ~the no of turn i get..and i get it after waiting for 4 HOURS!! ~taking pic bcoz of bored comes to us..haha ~my lil sis Lastly, we arrive home at 3 o’clock and above maybe because i don’t rememver the exact time..haha..i’m tired n really hungry..now, i’m writing this entry after watching tv for a while..haha.. So, the values that i’ve got today is patience can be your friend if you knpw how to handle it..if not, anger will comes to you..haha..a...

Assalamualaikum guys..huhu..been a long time for me... Hi , inche blog..my day so far wasn’t good..i guess i’m easily get mad when i’m at home..everything around me kinda increase my level of dissatisfaction and anger..grrrr.. i  write this just to kill time while waiting for the clock to turn into 12.15..huhu..i’m in the middle of getting something for my lil sister.. to get that kind of thing, i always have to increase my level of patience..i guess patience is not my strong spot..i usually don’t get mad easily but when it comes to this kind of thing..i guess i’m pretty upset and anger level risen to the limit...close to the limit...haha Today suppose to be the day i’ll be dicussing a group assignment with my fellow classmate and group members but i guess, i’m sorry for not involving..ahaha..k2..i’m going to now..for a second time for now..hope my turn already..huhu.. 12:03 May 26, 2013 ~may patience be mine..